Maddy’s Musings: Memoirs of a Teenage Brain
A brain does quite a lot of work, doesn’t it? It controls your balance, thought processes, heart rate, breathing, heat levels, voluntary and involuntary actions of your body and so on. Now add a little twist and complication to this and you have a perfect teenage brain.
Rather than doing its daily duty of thinking mentioned above, the teenage brain is every so often often thrown into disarray. Let’s see why. Firstly, we’re teenagers- we have nothing figured out, yet everything clearly put out for execution. It confuses the brain because one half of you is in complete oblivion as to what you’re doing whilst the other is ready as ever for whatever it is you have (un)planned.
A simple example: you’re trying to call someone you’re afraid to talk to- say a lost lover you wish to reclaim- there will be that moment when you’re charged up, with well- practised lines in your head and know exactly what you’re going to say. Yet, when the phone begins to ring or that someone actually picks up, your tongue ties itself up into knots and you’re left stuttering like a damaged tape. Hasn’t that happened to you? We as teenagers go through this two sided effect all the time.
Secondly, we’re programmed to be rebellious. It’s not intentional, we don’t particularly plan to go awry, it’s just that we’re always attracted to things we’re not supposed to be for the simple reason that we’re denied and the curiosity kicks in. Sometimes, such rebellion lands you in heaps of trouble; some sort of tangled mess that you later might regret. More often than not, though, it gives you that momentary thrill and adrenaline rush because you just experienced something you were not supposed to (it does not matter whether you liked it or not!).[pullquote_right]
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When we’re allowed to do something, try something or go to places, we don’t heed much to it because there’s not much thrill, and you know what to expect. On the contrary, when something is denied to us, we don’t know what to expect and twisted as our brains are, we seek out to discover that enigma. Please note that this is not advice for anyone to be rebellious – it’s not always a good thing – but I’m merely stating how most teenage brains actually think.
Thirdly, our brains do abnormal loads of thinking- have you ever caught yourself asking one question but soon find that you’ve spun a gigantic web of sub questions and then it feels like you’re stuck in between and there’s a spider called paranoia or insecurity or uncertainty (depending on what you spun your web around) stealthily closing in on you?
Teenage brains in particular are often quite famous for doing such things. See, our brain and our mind is like an infinite expanse of land upon which we create our own worlds comprised of our dreams, ambitions, fears, sorrows, emotions, and relationships, past, present and so on and so forth. It is quite exhausting to have a million thoughts run through your head and expect your brain to process them all at once as well as leave you in peace.
The most important thing that influences our behaviour, thought flow and processes alike are the relationships we maintain (or not). We are forever seeking acceptance and appreciation from the ones we really love and care about. We seek out to be perfect in some way or another- each one expresses it differently and the outside world perceives it differently and it’s a constant, everyday battle for us to love and be loved, to succeed, to know, to learn, to grow, to live up to expectations and understand how to really be an adult.
I think we’re all just children trapped within the depths of ourselves, clouded by age and exposure to the world and we struggle to emerge as a unique individual- often forgetting that we are born unique. Such is the twisted, complicated mind of a regular teenager. If you beg to differ, please feel free to do so but if you’ve been through any of the above or agree with me (even to a miniscule extent), join the club.